"This was a story about a girl who could find infinite beauty in anything..."-The Brothers Bloom

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

"There's a possibility, all that I had is all I'm gonn' get..."

My favorite singer right now is Lykke Li.  The first time I heard her music was when I was watching Twilight: New Moon which featured the song "Possibility" that she wrote for the soundtrack. The song appears in one of my favorite scenes in the movie, when Edward is gone and Bella is left in a seemingly unending pit of emptiness. This was also one of the most striking things to me about the book. In order to convey the passage of time without light and love, the author leaves three empty chapters with only the name of the month to mark them.  When I heard the opening resounding G chord that begins the song, I was struck by how much it conveyed to me the feeling of sorrow and emptiness; the way that it seems as if there will only ever be darkness; oppressive night. This song helped me to cope with a really difficult time in my life.  I had a playlist called 40 Days of Night that along with "Possibility" included the songs "Satellite Heart" by Anya Marina, "The Living" by Natalie Merchant, and "Slow Dancing in Burning Room" by John Mayer. That's it. Just four songs that I would listen to on repeat almost every night while I sighed (sometimes cried) myself to sleep. Thank God for the healing power of music.

Fortunately for me I am no longer trapped in the well of sadness, I've climbed out into the light but the sky is still grey and I've been wondering which way to go from here. Actually, I've already decided on my path, I just hope it's the right one.  There is a lot of music that I've been listening to lately that is helping me to work through all this which brings me back to Lykke Li and how much I love and identify with her music.  I sing the words and I can't believe that I didn't think to write them first. That's how much I feel like she is speaking my thoughts aloud.  I wanted to learn more about her and her creative process and I found an interview she did for Pitchfork. While reading it I realized how much we are like and I thought, "isn't that the point of music?" Music lets you know that you are not alone in how you feel. You aren't the only one who has ever felt this way. You aren't the only one who has ever made those mistakes and suffered those consequences. Music is such a personal thing. It allows you to see past the facades that people put up. You can see and hear their inner dialogue; who they really are, and realize that maybe they are just like you.

Read the interview with Lykke Li

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Sunday, March 27, 2011

Friday, March 25, 2011

Late Afternoon: pretty things and giveaways

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Thursday, March 24, 2011

Remnants of My Old Life

These are some pictures of how things used to be, before everything changed.

The Last 20 Years

 I've been going through everything I own recently trying to decide what to take with me on my upcoming adventure to Prague. I don't ever get rid of anything so it's been a bit overwhelming.  I have cards and letters going back 13 years, every program from every concert or event I've ever sung in or attended, and practically everything I've ever written or drawn.  I also have my brother and sister's artwork and writings. I was going through it all one night last week when I couldn't sleep.  There were so many things that made me smile, so many memories.  My favorite finds were all the notes that we had passed back and forth to each other in church. It reminded me how close we all used to be.  While most of the kids our age sat with their friends during church, we always sat together as a family.  It was nice to have a shoulder on each side of you that you could put your head on.  Everything is so different now.  Each year we seem to grow further apart. My brother is at school in Santa Barbara, my sister is here, and now I'm leaving to Europe for who knows how long...

Anyway, I couldn't sleep so I stayed up all night making a sort of refrigerator collage of all the stuff I'd collected; pictures, cards, drawings, notes.  I hoped it would help everyone to remember all the good times we've had together.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

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